The downside of hope

I keep hoping and hoping
like a young girl I never grew out of it
carried it around, danced around, like sunshine in my locket
my time will come and I will be very happy

Hope is cruel and never-ending
Slow and steady, I didn't realize I would
be continuously waiting for you
the waiting is purely heartbreaking
what you did is even worse

And it's unfair to say I never tried
You will never know what we could be
what I would be
Because you never took the time to get to know me

I don't want to hope
I don't want to care
I don't want to know why
I just want to see hope die