DON'T GLANCE THIS WAY

Falling in love with someone is the worst curse in the design and makeup of a couple. It brings out the worst and most neurotic side of my brain. I don't know what effect it has on the general population of the world, i have this consummate feeling of sadness. Its an unattainable happiness which I despise yet at the same time crave. I yearn for it daily, every hour, every minute. This aberrant awareness which i sprint toward and dash off in fear like a young child trembling, unable to breath. Ironically enough I feel as though it is the air I am in search of, the fuel that keeps me alive. Without it, I am lost. Lost in a common place world in which i pity all the broken hearted fools who could not keep up with or embrace this curse. I need love, I need approval and I need to have someone who needs my love in exchange. It does make me angry knowing they have every inch of me. I give my lips, my legs my eyes and every parcel in between. I give my mouth, my touch and my soul. I am left with uncertainty and doubt and fear. Fear from myself that maybe that isn't enough. I don't know when something is enough. I push, stretch, twist till i do not recognize myself. I live in this deluded maze. It is a torture cell for my tortured soul. It is my hell. If you can not succumb to my anomalistic ambience then do not enter. Do not hold my body, do not kiss my mouth, or brush your hand between my legs. Do not try to seduce my mind. Do not misinterpret what i say. and please for your sake, do not glance my way.

Words Unsaid

Some words you just can't say
Somehow they lose the meaning
lose the fixation of the dream
when their free to the world
There's something mysterious and
even dangerous when you can
peer into the eyes of someone
and have tawdry thoughts
and they cannot grab them
cannot buy them
cannot surrepitiously take them
they are all your own